July 1, 2010
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just a rant
I KNOW how blessed I am to be able to stay home with Lydia. I love her, and I wouldn't change it for the world. But the past 2 weeks she has just been so cranky!
I NEVER have time to myself. I have been having nightmares regularly for the past few weeks equating to little sleep (So Okay, I'm probably cranky too) I put her int he crib this AM just so I could shower and I could hear her crying. Just a whiny cry, not like she was hurt or anything, Usually, that hurries me up, but I got to thinking - this is gross to me, so I'm sorry - "I DON'T EVEN KNOW THE LAST TIME I SHAVED MY LEGS!" I know I haven't had a manicure or pedicure since 2007 (before we moved when I had an income. That is okay that doesn't bother me too much, but shaving my legs? I don't even ger to go potty alone! She's in there trying to pull things out of the garbage and hand it to me and flush while I.... LOL. Just typing this, I can feel the stress releasing a little bit. It IS funny. But I feel like I get nothing done without her undoing it! She unplugs the vaccuum 20 times when I am vaccuuming, gets between me and the cabinet when I am trying to do dishes. I realize that these are memories that I will have forever and soon she will want to hide from me, so that makes me sadder!
I have had a headache for the past 3 weeks (and am paranoid that it is from the oli) I have a weird rash on my foot, and a different one under my breast, my stomach has been doing flip flops for days. I ground (grinded?) right through my night time mouth guard. We are headed to NY/NJ in August and I am paranoid already! When we were at my parents 2 weeks ago, Lydia was in the room with us, and Fred's snoring kept her awake. The second night (after my sister had left) we went into the other room and Lydia fell out of the bed. How will we do this in NY? Supposedly we *might* be staying at a Prophet's Chamber in a church in Brooklyn. Fred's mother is going to be 77 this year, and is not in the best of health, and she has only seen Lydia when she was 4 months old. She is a whole different person now. Oh, did I mention we're driving? 1500 miles each way? with an 18 month old? In a Toyota Yaris? Oh JOY!
I'm even debating just marking this private so you don't see my silliness, but I just needed to vent. We're here and Alive!
Comments (1)
Oh Mama, this is in fact a tough age!!
It does get better!
And not silly, as much as we love them and as much of a blessing as tehy are they can drive you off your rocker somedays!!!
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